I just kind of miss editing. I feel like I have no passion, and no inspiration anymore, and I kind of hate it. I remember when I used to be so active here, and I'd talk to you guys like, every day. And I really miss that, but I feel like I can't get it back.
I feel like my inspiration and my love of editing was stolen from me somehow, even though I'm the one who let it slip away. I miss being able to sit down and create something without it hurting me to work on something. For so long, everything I edited was nothing but vents, and I just can't live that way anymore. But it's like I've totally forgotten how to edit a fandom, just plain and simple; because I love it--not because I feel like I might die without the release editing provides.
I don't know. I'm frustrated, I guess. It's not a question you can ask--"how do I get my passion back?" That's just not how it works. But I miss it. All I really want is to be able to edit again.
And I feel like I've lost it forever.