But I do admit to backing out of the social side of the community. I did try to say thanks to any commenters, and even join a few MEPs that I struggled with due to inspiration... but now I want to try to get back in the community. Dearie Lacrymosai has told me that the community isn't a bad thing, it isn't rude or scary like I thought it was. So here I am, and I want to be friends with you guys.
I'll be honest... I always thought like I was less special than everyone else. I'm not a moderator or admin of anything besides my studio, Pacific Eve, and I felt like anything I said or suggested to the community didn't matter because I wasn't a huge part of it like many other people. Over time I felt less and less special, like my editing was very standard and like I generally didn't matter much. So I kept backing up further and further until I was so far back in the shadows that I didn't even remember I could be a part of the community anymore.
But I want to try to get over these feelings. I am tired of feeling like I'm not as great as everyone else, when I know we are all equal. This community is intended for fun and projects and creativity, and well if I am supposed to be in it then I would like to knock on your door and beg for a cup of tea. xD
Is there anything I can do to help at all?